However in that moment I was a shell of my former self. I was overcome with the burden of lack and need that I never seemed able to escape. Just last month I was consumed with anticipation and hope for my new book "Letters From A Desperate Heart" would soon be released. Surely it would be a major bestseller. I would no longer have to struggle, get rejected, or be overlooked. Things would be better. My life would be better. I would be better. However today marked 18 days since the release of the new book to not even a ripple of notice. With only one print copy and three ebooks sold I am forced to faced a new reality.
What if nothing changed and everything remained the same? What if I was doomed to never have and always need? How much longer could I handle the duress of the inconsistencies that pursuing greater seemed to constantly bring? I wondered if I should try to get a job, start a vlog, or just give up but deep down in my heart I knew giving up was and could never be an option. The Lord gifted me a gift that up until today I had seen no real benefit. With my words I express. With my words I heal. With my words I release. With my words I inspire. Writing is my gift. Writing is my purpose. No matter what, write is what I am determined to do.
The Journey Continues...
Though life seems to constantly hand me limes I am determined to live life until they ripen so that I can make some BOMB BEHIND LEMONADE!